Your birthday

To: Aisyah
From: Mom

Aisyah's 3rd birthday

Yesterday marks the 3rd year my daughter was born to the world. I still remembered clearly my timoltuous journey of pregnancy. Was admitted many times due to preterm contraction, had experienced being tocolysed in the labour room at 26w gestational age, at 30weeks gestational age. Many times was diagnosed with UTI
And on 13th march 2014, my water broke, was watching tv at that time with my husband.
I was still acting peacefully, but my dearest husband was panicking, i still remembered how kalut he was while preparing me to the hkl. Luckily all the items for delivery were prepared, it was 10pm ish, he drove the car to the hospital bersalin.
I was assessed at PAC, my MO Dr Izzah assessed me, sent me straight to labour room as i was opened at 4cm. At 12midnight i arrived at the labour room. I still remember my husband was being very supportive, thank you abang.
Aisyah was born swiftly, with just 2 big pushes. I still remember hearing her first cry, that beautiful sound still fresh in my mind. That delicate skin sensation the first time it touches my skin. Everything was so wonderful, all the pain were lifted up. I remembered seeing your father's face, he was so rejoice with you being born.

Now you are already 3years old, time flies so quickly, i wish i spent more time with you when you were smaller. Sorry for not being there when you were sick, when you were sad, when you were lonely, when you wanted me to listen to all your stories. I just want you to know that you mean the world to me, and you are the best give i ever had my whole life. I love you so much, Aisyah. Selamat hari jadi ke 3, anakanda. Semoga membesar dengan sihat, dan sentiasa dalam rahmat dan kasih sayang Allah.

No carbo day

Date: March 26th, 2017
Weight 84 kg

Date: April 6th 2017

Weight: 81 kg

My life vs my study

1. My life starts to get haywire. My mode depends on the topic that I study, if the topic is easy, then I will be cheerful, if not, then I will be moody.

2. Actually I do not really realise this, but my wife did. I start to sigh, sometimes it is a short one, sometimes it is a longer one, also depending on the severity of the formula that I try to understand.

3. Everyday, after reaching home, I will take few minutes just to get off from the bike. I will use the time to ponder upon what did I understand today.

4. I totally blame the study for the 4 kg that I gained. All the clothes started to get smaller, or I am getting bigger... sigh~

5. Few days back, I dreamt of being stabbed by Aisyah, just because of I forgot the radial flow formula. I screamed until I woke up!

...Road to Permanent head Damage... may Allah makes everything easy for me...Ameen!

Running from Reality

1. There were moments where I felt so down and they made me wanna hit the snooze button. I knew that it will hit me right in the face again, but thank God, with the snooze button, I could breath...for a while.

2. While on snooze, I grabbed my sport shoes and ran. I kept running, while listening to music. Actually I did not. I zoned out, until my legs could not take it no more, then I realised I ran for 25km.

3. There was moment when I bought a movie ticket and watch. While watching, I cried...gave it all out, generously...

4. Sometimes, I paid OT to my babby sitter just to have a quick escape from everything. Of course eventually I came back... you cannot ditch the cutest creature...

I still could not find what was the reason..could it be the common things you will experience at the age 30s... maybe one day I will figure it out... maybe...

Ketupat

Ketupat

There are a lot of things that you can learn from ketupat, that reflects your identity~

RE... This is so far the most advance person in making ketupat. No matter how complicated the weaving is, they will handle it with care. They teach us all the newbies. Even if this the first time for him, he will superior it in no time (experience in handling reservoirs). Idah, aida, pie

DD and Front-End... They received the final products, no matter how bad they are, they will fix it. They have the capability to re-do and re-touch at final stage. Deq-ai, Farah

PP... This is so far the most unique position. Not only lacking of the capability and experience, this guys will call whatever they made as ketupat eventhough it is obviously look like potato. This will later will be fixed by DD and FE. Rafael and rafael's friend.

PTech.... Pfttt.... This guy will never show up at all. Some goes to GG...
At the end...'tak ajak~' bijan, kutub, aiman, naim, zahari

Alamanda teacher

1. So today, unexpectedly, I bumped into my secondary school teacher at Alamanda. It had been 13 years since I left school.

2. To be honest, it was quite a shame for me since he was the one who said hi first, Not me. Well dear, in my defense, I was busy looking for mosque for Friday prayer, I was not familiar with that place yet...lol.

3. It is very impressived that at his age, he has a very good memory. He could recognised his 13 year-old-student from afar, and I bet he did that to other students as well. That is a blessing that is being given to him, good memory!

4. Thank god, I had been fasting for the past few days, exercising, and I had not have lunch yet. Plus, I was wearing the best clothes I've ever have in my closet. So, I believed that I looked good in front of him and his wife. Hey, image does matter! Lol~

5. Out of sudden, the old stories came back to my mind... Good and bad, all of them. That shaped me into who I am as for today. Sir, it is an honour to be one of your students!

Hidup dan motorbike

My motorcycle memory

1. It teaches you how short life is... There are always moment of; OMG, that was closed! Thank God...!

2. You get to understand the feeling of homeless people, both scorching hot sun and freezing cold rain.

3. You get your own moment of silence... Good for self-reflection or memorizing certain things. Caution; Do not close your eyes, you might not be able to re-open!

4. First help in accident scenes...

Pantai Senok

The return of son of anarchy

1. The last time I went home was last Eid Hajj last year. It has been a while... been too occupied with duniawi and ukhrawi.

2. The first thing in my mind, when I stepped on the mother earth of Kelantan was, how can I make this whole state better? Lots of strategies linger in my mind... Maybe I should be a politician here. Then, I realise that I have been away too long... Start small!

3. The beach was beautiful. It is called Pantai Senok. Alas, people mistreat it...rubbish, social problems and what not... Start small!

4. Parents are getting older. The black hair fades away, the strength diminishes... Lack of general information makes their health gets worst... Suddenly, old memories reminisce, brushing all the cobwebs... Speechless!

Good day